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[trigeminalheadache]

I've been tossed at a few people I don't know. Which, oddly enough, has resulted in meeting pretty good people.

If I kept a diary, I'd accuse them of reading it.

[ownperson]

welp if you’ve had a good streak i might break it

(i’m joking)

[ Mostly. She doesn’t think of herself as any kind of good person, but she’s got it on decent authority she’s not actually that bad these days. ]

is it bad to say i’m glad it’s not just me because seriously i am glad it’s not just me. i thought i had no shame until a fuckin precision targeted one got sent to a friend

[trigeminalheadache]

[ south can't see it, but the joke makes her smile. ]

It's not bad at all. I'd probably say it, too. There's definitely moments where it feels like this place is targeting you. And it thrives on embarrassing us.

One was sent to a guy that I only sort of know, and I got a talking to on being safe and picky on who I choose to engage in it with.

[ownperson]

fuck it sure does

oh god was that as patronising as it sounds like it was bc ugh on your behalf, if so

[trigeminalheadache]

It was somewhat patronizing, yeah.
But I understood where he was coming from? In a way.
I had... have an issue with my current Dominant.
Just waiting for the contract to expire.

[ownperson]

ngl i'm the type where patronisation that comes w/ a good point pisses me off more but that's me. i'm contrary like that

but shit that sounds bad

one of those 'really wish the city would let us dissolve these damn things' times?

[trigeminalheadache]

Sounds like someone I know.

[ frost. it reminds her of her 'sister' frost. ]

Something like that, yeah.
She has powers, some newer than others.
She used something to make me agree to a contract. And to some other things.
I'm fine now, though.

[ownperson]

oh wtf

and of course this place doesn't care about contracts being signed in situations like that

had a friend end up contracted during that weird heritage week when we weren't even us, saw how that goes

[ Granted Wash is signing with the little fucker again so his bad judgement is apparently just his own, but still. ]

[trigeminalheadache]

Heritage week? You mean Tumenalia?

And no, I doubt they very much care if things are signed through coercion.
With as much coercion as this place does itself.

[ownperson]

nah not even, that weird stretch where we all thought we were born in the city? first big weird shit that happened after i arrived here

ugh yeah good point

[trigeminalheadache]

Oh. Oh, shit. Contracts signed then definitely shouldn't have counted for real. Now I'm glad I was contracted during that. Otherwise, I would have just signed with anyone who expressed a mild want for me.

[ownperson]

yeaaaah it was bad, but i bet that's exactly what they wanted out of whatever the fuck that was. that friend of mine got stuck with a guy who absolutely wanted to and has at one point stabbed him so yeah it was uh

well i was glad my fake self was too busy dealing with my brother's shit to contract anyone

[trigeminalheadache]

I'm sure it was part of their goals, yeah. But that's crazy. There's a knife play and then there's that.

Your brother is here?

[ownperson]

ikr, there's kinky and there's attempted murder

he was here, for a few months. not anymore, though. y'know w/ how these places are w/ people coming and going

[trigeminalheadache]

And if you're certain people, there's actual murder with light consequences.

I do know. I've seen a lot of people come and go. And come and go.

[ownperson]

man this place's priorities are sure a fucking thing

people that went and reappeared? haven't had that yet myself, just a string of people disappearing rapid fire

[trigeminalheadache]

It's like our 'energy' fuels this place or something. I know it's not true, but it sure feels like it sometimes.

I know a few people who seem to exist in a revolving door here. Don't know if it's because the city likes them particularly or if it hates them.

[ownperson]

maybe it's both. i think you gotta hate a person to subject them to this place repeatedly

i'm on team 'technically better off here' but like, man even then

[trigeminalheadache]

That sounds pretty accurate. A 'love to torment' thing.

Are you... Sorry, this is a personal and sensitive question, and you can completely ignore it if you want. Are you dead back home?

[ownperson]

man you can tell there's a lot of us when that's the go-to. yeah, sure am. or, well, it's complicated?

like, i was alive last i knew, but according to some folks i die like, maybe a month at most after that

[trigeminalheadache]

I've recently become friendly with a few people in that situation. And it's one people will more readily admit to instead of a bad home life.

That's so hard. Knowing that. I don't know that I'd want someone to tell me I was dead or going to die.

[ownperson]

good point. i've met a fair few too

[ Mostly from her own world, but still. ]

the guy who told me was pissed at me at the time, think he was trying to freak me out tbh. it's definitely weird? i've sorta accepted it but i don't think about it much

[ Said guy was also the one that shot her. Annnnd also another version of the friend she's been talking about. God, their lives are weird. ]

[trigeminalheadache]

Probably best not to think about it.
Dwelling on it isn't going to change anything. It'll just keep you preoccupied.

I feel like we should change the conversation. Got a little heavy.

[ownperson]

p fucking much yeah

but yeah probably. that sure crept up on us, huh

[trigeminalheadache]

It has that tendency. Gather up even two of us, and we can get lost in bitching about this place.