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[ownperson]

stalker
ugh i just don't want to sleep, alright

[hackeo]

ay where have i heard that before
do i need to come tuck you in? tell you a bedtime story???

[ownperson]

[ This sent on an immediate self-hating whim that she wishes she could take back... ]

why would you even want to

[ Pause, then ] ugh i mean
i don't know what i mean

[hackeo]

ok first of all i live with you and i need to come back to you soon unless you WANT me in slut jail for the third time this month
second of all
ugh ok
we're friends and you need me, south

[ownperson]

[ She types 'I don't need ANYONE' three different times, writing it out and deleting it and writing it out again, before she gives up. Holds her phone (still very cracked) against her forehead before typing again. ]

i don't want you in jail
and i don't know how to admit i need anything

[hackeo]

[ Ain't that a mood, Sombra knows that line well. But she's getting better, slowly, even though she's sighing, somewhere in Cassidy's apartment, at reading the messages she does get. ]

ok look i'm coming back to you in the morning whether you want me or not soooo
you want me to ignore you, i will
you want me to lay on your chest like the world's cutest weighted blanket, i will
up to you, amiga
just
you're not alone, you know?

[ownperson]

yeah
i know
i dunno what i want yet
just
i'm sorry

[hackeo]

you don't have to know yet
it's ok

want me to bring you breakfast later?

[ownperson]

not sorry for that just
i do this thing
where i try to burn shit down before it can happen anyway
i thought i was done with that shit
but i guess i'm not?
guess i'm still kinda a mess
and i'm sorry

[ All that, then just: ]

yeah, okay

[hackeo]

[ Somewhere she's rolling her eyes, because, ]

i know that's what you meant

[ Just, you know, she isn't the best with real feelings and apologies herself. (Sound familiar, South?) ]

that's ok too
so is being a hot mess, you're allowed to be
ugh i just don't want to fight with you anymore, ok?

[ownperson]

i don't wanna fight with you either
despite being an angry bitch i don't like fighting with people i like
just suck at stopping myself
apparently
but i'm not gonna starting yelling again
promise
not as fresh now and i've slept like less than 8 hours in two days so

[ She doesn't even have the energy to start arguing, honestly. ]

[hackeo]

i mean u can yell if u want, just not at me
see? and u wonder why i'm here to tell you to go to sleep already

[ Says little miss I'm Not Tired after refusing to sleep for weeks for a while there, but you know. ]

you want to borrow one of my teddies? señor oso is still there and he's not haunted anymore, he's a good snuggler

[ownperson]

if i felt like i could sleep i would
this happens sometimes its whatever

[ It happens when wherever she sleeps is too quiet for her to feel comfortable sleeping. Guess who still doesn't like admitting that! ]

i don't think i've ever even had a stuffed bear

[ South babe that is not an answer. ]

[hackeo]

ok fine just idk
don't burn yourself out

[ Sombra will be back soon, which means there'll be noise again soon too, at least. ]

ay qué, really?
lame
arturito's been with me since i was little
he helps me work and sleep and feel better when i'm sick
take señor oso for the night and see

[ownperson]

even if i do i'll just crash after
then i'll be fine
y'know for whatever measure i'm gonna be fine for
a while

we just never had much money for toys
think i played with the same truck my entire childhood
but alright alright i'll try it

[hackeo]

i still have some weed sara gave me when i couldn't sleep, you want some of that too?

[ And for a moment there that seems to be all she's sending - before finally, after months of being contracted, friends, living together, Sombra finally decides to open up. Just a little, with, ]

when i was little, after i lost everything and everyone, humanitarian relief gave me arturito
he's all i had, too
every night i looked at his little overwatch patch and his cute little face, and i didn't feel so alone anymore

anyway u can always snuggle me later too, offer's still on table

[ownperson]

mmmmmmmmaybe?
god when the fuck was the last time i got high...

[ Oh she does not expect a Sombra lore drop right now. ]

no wonder you love the teddies so much
man
i mean. they're definitely a lot cuddlier than a truck

and so are you
we'll see. i don't wanna cry on you that'll just risk starting this mess over
really suck at letting people see me cry

[hackeo]

for you amiga, i'm very cuddly
also ok soooooooooo, in that case
what if i just don't look if you do cry?? no peeking, promise

[ownperson]

what if tears get like
ON u tho
can you resist complaining

[hackeo]

😩
ok i do like complaining but this time i'll hold off, just for you

[ownperson]

the sacrifices you make, huh

[ She's almost smiling. ]

[hackeo]

ha ha
you should feel special amiga, i don't make sacrifices for everyone
only my cutest friends 💜

[ownperson]

you're about the only one who can call me cute and it not sound totally ridiculous and yet
but don't worry. i know i've got special privileges

[hackeo]

you do!! not many can say that
but also ok listen
if you still need to cry it out before i come home, señor oso keeps all sorts of secrets

actually
you can hold onto him and cry into his fur for as long as you want, ok?

[ownperson]

i said i'll give it a go
how long is as long as i want here