on the rig, before here, but yeah. i got told

[ The Wash from the rig made sure she knew, it was the first thing he really said to her—what was the last thing she remembered, her shooting him in the back or him putting a bullet between her eyes? But for obvious reasons, she can’t go into that. Besides, they get on now, it’s fine. ]

kinda? mostly cause i don’t know what good thinking about it does. either i go back and live it, or i stay here forever, at this point. was gonna dodge it entirely, if i’d made it home from the rig, but that’s off the table now

[ She thinks about it more than she should, she thinks. Thinking about it, believing she deserved it, is what freaked North out so bad last time. ]